it creeps not in messages
but their lack
someone has begun to hover
else
a wet fire swells, refuses tears
smokes a cigarette on the porch
my jaw is out of step
with a certain soft light
my eyes are two
blind infants as black pearl
my hair is a beach weed
sunshine starved
my throat was torn by a german
lacking the romance of a dog
but with the finesse of
fluorescents and ultrasound
anyway i paid the bill
watched my hips grow soft
swathed in knits
danced my knees free
of their cartilage
walked my feet away
from their own dendrites
to swallow Lazarus every morning
chewable under finite incandescence
Nunca Mas
Nunca Mas
your legs are two black ropes
and how does an unwashed
female differ
i practiced virginity
held pope fingers high
behind my head
scrubbed the leather stained feet of white tights
the strirrups of shinguards
the whole world smelled like a damp car
and a dusty dog
and all the ways we were never catholic
parking this car
while i have to pee
and the cats are screaming
someone needs you
past the flashing blue
and the flashing red
while all that’s gold
does its glittering
we made a place
where threats are pretend
and no one dares the disrespect
of calling to see if you got home ok
tilted like little ancient
slaves of that sea
and vain as eons
of mirrored fathers
my eyes are off kilter
set in orbits of bone
tectonically born
of a slim hipped woman
who could not bear
anything else
